everything is to make us realize … what love is about … I could say … it’s all … a karmic message … that once understood…. we could practice it … with anyone from the scene of our lives.
I continue … meditating.
… everyday.
Looking back into my past … but also into the present moment … at all those persons … that look … so in love. I smile …
I try again and again to understand… the meaning …. but
maybe i’ve understood all … long, long time ago … and i just don’t accept anymore any of my … perceptions…. which looks so, so … illusory.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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Karmic … and dharmic … a weird cocktail of energies
Short definition for karmic is mainly … a lesson … a life lesson which we need to learn from life.
Dharmic … is actually a duty we have in this world for some of the people from the stage of our lives.
Today … i still consider that both concepts could be really annoying… if we don’t really understand the message behind the message … and its importance in redefining our souls.
A weird case scenario is when we actually live a story which is karmic and dharmic into the same time …
Could be for example the role you play in the life of a ….
brother … for example … which into the end …. proves to be
a karmic character … and quite a very annoying one.
You are the one helping … unconditionally… as one day to see you are treated into a very funny way …. by him.
It’s like … all is a joke … and the Universe is laughing of you behind of your back.
Living … and being influenced and maybe also dominated by both karmic and dharmic energies … into the same time … becomes … almost …. a nonsense.
One which we can’t really understand … no matter how much we should try.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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But later on …. the ones … having philosophical or spiritual
background … remember that all … it’s just … an illusion. And we … realize … the purpose was to understand…. the illusion of the self.
To get rid of the belief …. that … “I am … I.” … and everything
related with the subject.
But … well … it’s all too complicated … to accept … Karmic stories … exist.
Same …. the dharmic ones.
The mix of them … also …
We should probably … just meditate … more and more … and realize the meaning of all is going on … on this stage of life … where we live …. day by day.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
61
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Ending karmic stories … looks sometimes almost impossible.
But … cutting part of the connection
is the only trick that can save us to stop being non stop into that
illusory chapter … which drives us
crazy … more and more ….
Once happened to have to a conflict with a couple …
And … it was funny cause we’ve started to be instantaneously friends … when we’ve met.
Later on … because of some technical problems … we’ve started to argue, as into the end to declare ourselves… enemies.
We’ve been suddenly metamorphosed from good friends … to … enemies … and it was so damn … annoying.
But a very important detail … which i remember was that … after arguing a lot … speaking impolite to each other … making all sorts of stupid declarations on both sides … they’ve decided to stop communicating to me.
In fact i’ve communicated … only with their lawyer … and could not understand what looked to me at that time … a
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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total nonsense.
Later on …. meditating more … i’ve realized they were
partially cutting the connection with me. They used the lawyer as an energetic shield …
It was an amazing trick … not to be anymore in contact with me … and annoy them … non stop.
We’ve started to be friends … to end up … being enemies later on …
I was karmic to them …
They were … karmic to me …
But … they knew more than me about karmic stories …. and
even if they did not wanted to close the conflict we had … they preferred to pay a lawyer to do the dirty job with me … I smile remembering the story.
I am not annoyed anymore … when i remember the story … I understand the trick …. but i still remained silly … and never
remember when i am into a karmic story … that i could disconnect from all … at least from time to time ….
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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Sometimes is useless to … guide them.
I saw at many people around me … a silly desire of always giving advices to the people around themselves.
I even started to consider this habit … quite a stupid one … but analyzing myself more and more … i’ve realized … i do actually the same thing.
And … i try to do it with all the persons … closed to me. But … analyzing more and more … i’ve realized … it’s all useless … and i am wasting my time. Actually … even worst.
I’ve started to see beyond reality.
I saw the energies … and the dynamic of all what is going on … beyond the scene of life.
I saw the masks people where carrying …. pretending they
are who they are not … playing in fact just … a stupid role. Then … I suddenly remembered … that all i see is just a reflection of my soul.
Their mistakes … were … my mistakes.
Their silly energies … were part of my soul … and they appeared to me … not so that i can guide them to better paths of life … but to understand it’s the proper time to guide myself … so that i could become … a better self.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
64
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I saw their karmic stories … believing those illusions are real
and i have the duty to … help them.
but they were blinds.
Same as i was …. cause maybe the message … beyond the
message … was for myself.
I had to stop … wasting my time and energy so that i guide those persons.
It was indeed the time to guide myself … to analyze and define more deeper … my own soul … so that i could into the end to simple start a process of redefining all related to my soul.
to my connection to different energies.
and follow better … paths of life.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
65
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Seeing the message …. but
pretending we don’t see it … on and on and on … we just continue living
ignoring the real paths we need to follow in life.
When i say … karma … everyone get scared … or at least becomes … annoyed … if it is a story … destined to that person.
If i start to define .. what i see beyond that scene of life … and why i call all … karmic … i see people even more scared … or more annoyed.
And i am actually surprised of such an attitude … but looking back in time … at all the karmic episodes of my life … I realize i’ve acted the same when i’ve been told about the fact
that i need to realize the karmic message … understand it deeply …. and then redefine my life.
But the truth was that i was not agreeing the idea of … change.
the fact that it was the time … and i could not delay it anymore.
The messages … were repeated.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
66
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I knew by years that whatever it’s on and on and on … it’s karmic … but … again … i was just delaying …. all.
It was like …. I was hoping as the Universe to change its
mind … and all i had to do was … to wait.
But it was such a … nonsense.
That continued … for years …. and i was keep pretending…
My spiritual evolution was … good.
But … not good enough … probably … cause I was ….
pretending… a lot …. ignoring the signs … and the messages i
knew about by such a long time … became an art for myself. And … i continue to ignore the real paths i need to follow. Like my whole life …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
67
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Perfect stories look sometimes so real … but are in fact lessons about the illusion of life
To understand the life itself … most probably we need to understand our own lives.
Sometimes it’s easier to understand the people around us … but we make the mistake of always … judging those people … not realizing we actually judge ourselves … with all our mistakes … and everything related with what is named … our dark side.
Well … i believe the same … that it sounds … so … weird. But that until one day … when we suddenly understand that dark side … might not be … something bad. It’s maybe … something … un revealed.
I had many times the chance to live … all sorts of experiences… that were probably meant to make me understand…. my meaning in here … but the most weird ones
are …. those stories that look … perfect.
And being into such chapter of life … i’ve wondered … how the hell i’ve got there?!
Are those perfect stories real?!
What if it is all … an illusion?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
68
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Maybe this is why i always ask myself if the title of my book “The illusion … of being part of an illusion” … is a correct title … or not.
Hmm…. Today i somehow believe that all it’s an illusion …
maybe a karmic one … having the only purpose to reveal us the illusion of life.
but i also believe that the Universe is laughing behind my back … replacing the ugly illusory karmic stories … with perfect case scenarios … that look so damn real ….
Deep inside myself … i still know it’s all … illusory. I feel it …
I deeply feel it …
All i do … is accept the situation…. and continue my life …. And maybe i should stop asking myself … anything at all.
stop thinking.
Simple … enjoy life … and nothing more … nothing less.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
69
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Revealing the truth …. it will hurt …
a lot … so maybe we should just redefine all … in a totally different way … and pretend it’s not what it looks like.
We live with the hope … but also with the illusion that all the stories from our lives … are very important chapters that will never have an end.
But when we look into the past … and deeply analyze all … i realize that all my stories had a beginning, the story itself and … the end.
.. even the most important stories from my life. Yesterday … someone wrote me about my book “Analyze. Define. Redefine.” … and asked me to teach her how to define the story she had with … a married man.
She wanted to know if in fact they are lovers … or she is just a mistress, or they simple have an amazing sexual relationship … or … or … or …
She had in fact about 20 different perceptions about them.
… and were so, so contradictory thoughts.
But instead of letting her know the secrets of my book … i simple ask … “Why do you need to define?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
70
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Why don’t you just enjoy the story …. and forget about those
analyzes?!
It looks useless … to have so many contradictory thoughts about you and him …”
She did not liked … what i’ve told her.
In fact … she was expecting from me the truth … or maybe even … the absolute truth.
but the real truth was that i not even knew them in person
to feel their energies.
To feel if they have … a connection…
All what came into my mind was that all was … very complicated… and maybe the relationship itself … was in fact … a karmic relationship.
The whole meaning was … to redefine their souls … and teach them … what absolute love is.
She was trying to define and redefine all … to look like a great … love story … but …
It was indeed an important chapter of her life … and a real important story … but maybe not what she had in mind.
My perception about the whole story was different … but not positive … or negative.
I believed that the word … karmic … would define all very
good … but … maybe she was not ready for such … a
definition…. for her reality.
… and it’s normal …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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Residual energies must be … reconverted. … maybe in wisdom.
I stay in the sofa from my home … meditate …. drink a coffee
… and write.
I look back in time … and remember about all the karmic stories from my life … and i smile. I could probably laugh …
Laugh … of myself.
Of the fact that even if i’ve studied for such a long time philosophy and spirituality … and even if i knew that all i see on the stage of my own life … it’s an illusion … i believed … the opposite.
And that was the reason … why i’ve allowed myself to be annoyed by so many people … that i allowed to be dominated by anger, fear, sadness, guilt, shame, anxiety, disgust, disappointment, embarrassment, jealousy, apathy, envy, hate
and all the rest of negative emotions a human being can feel.
It happened to me for so, so many years into the row … not realizing that even if i know the theories about the secrets of life … i was so stupid that i was trying to fight with the karmic ghosts that appeared to me all the time.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
72
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The concept … which i knew … and understood deeply that … all we see is an illusion … totally disappeared from my mind when i was acting on the scene of reality.
I was explaining to the others … and also wrote about the subjects in many of my books … but the embarrassing truth was that … when it came about my own life … i failed all the karmic tests.
But the Universe was … smiling too.
And my karmic experiences kept repeating… for years. Years in the row … and i was metamorphosed into a robot that was experiencing an automatic pilot all the possible negative emotions that … i could experience into this lifetime. I knew it was wrong.
I continue … meditating.
… everyday.
Looking back into my past … but also into the present moment … at all those persons … that look … so in love. I smile …
I try again and again to understand… the meaning …. but
maybe i’ve understood all … long, long time ago … and i just don’t accept anymore any of my … perceptions…. which looks so, so … illusory.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
59
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
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Karmic … and dharmic … a weird cocktail of energies
Short definition for karmic is mainly … a lesson … a life lesson which we need to learn from life.
Dharmic … is actually a duty we have in this world for some of the people from the stage of our lives.
Today … i still consider that both concepts could be really annoying… if we don’t really understand the message behind the message … and its importance in redefining our souls.
A weird case scenario is when we actually live a story which is karmic and dharmic into the same time …
Could be for example the role you play in the life of a ….
brother … for example … which into the end …. proves to be
a karmic character … and quite a very annoying one.
You are the one helping … unconditionally… as one day to see you are treated into a very funny way …. by him.
It’s like … all is a joke … and the Universe is laughing of you behind of your back.
Living … and being influenced and maybe also dominated by both karmic and dharmic energies … into the same time … becomes … almost …. a nonsense.
One which we can’t really understand … no matter how much we should try.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
60
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But later on …. the ones … having philosophical or spiritual
background … remember that all … it’s just … an illusion. And we … realize … the purpose was to understand…. the illusion of the self.
To get rid of the belief …. that … “I am … I.” … and everything
related with the subject.
But … well … it’s all too complicated … to accept … Karmic stories … exist.
Same …. the dharmic ones.
The mix of them … also …
We should probably … just meditate … more and more … and realize the meaning of all is going on … on this stage of life … where we live …. day by day.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
61
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
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Ending karmic stories … looks sometimes almost impossible.
But … cutting part of the connection
is the only trick that can save us to stop being non stop into that
illusory chapter … which drives us
crazy … more and more ….
Once happened to have to a conflict with a couple …
And … it was funny cause we’ve started to be instantaneously friends … when we’ve met.
Later on … because of some technical problems … we’ve started to argue, as into the end to declare ourselves… enemies.
We’ve been suddenly metamorphosed from good friends … to … enemies … and it was so damn … annoying.
But a very important detail … which i remember was that … after arguing a lot … speaking impolite to each other … making all sorts of stupid declarations on both sides … they’ve decided to stop communicating to me.
In fact i’ve communicated … only with their lawyer … and could not understand what looked to me at that time … a
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
62
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
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total nonsense.
Later on …. meditating more … i’ve realized they were
partially cutting the connection with me. They used the lawyer as an energetic shield …
It was an amazing trick … not to be anymore in contact with me … and annoy them … non stop.
We’ve started to be friends … to end up … being enemies later on …
I was karmic to them …
They were … karmic to me …
But … they knew more than me about karmic stories …. and
even if they did not wanted to close the conflict we had … they preferred to pay a lawyer to do the dirty job with me … I smile remembering the story.
I am not annoyed anymore … when i remember the story … I understand the trick …. but i still remained silly … and never
remember when i am into a karmic story … that i could disconnect from all … at least from time to time ….
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
63
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Sometimes is useless to … guide them.
I saw at many people around me … a silly desire of always giving advices to the people around themselves.
I even started to consider this habit … quite a stupid one … but analyzing myself more and more … i’ve realized … i do actually the same thing.
And … i try to do it with all the persons … closed to me. But … analyzing more and more … i’ve realized … it’s all useless … and i am wasting my time. Actually … even worst.
I’ve started to see beyond reality.
I saw the energies … and the dynamic of all what is going on … beyond the scene of life.
I saw the masks people where carrying …. pretending they
are who they are not … playing in fact just … a stupid role. Then … I suddenly remembered … that all i see is just a reflection of my soul.
Their mistakes … were … my mistakes.
Their silly energies … were part of my soul … and they appeared to me … not so that i can guide them to better paths of life … but to understand it’s the proper time to guide myself … so that i could become … a better self.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
64
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philosophical & spiritual essays
I saw their karmic stories … believing those illusions are real
and i have the duty to … help them.
but they were blinds.
Same as i was …. cause maybe the message … beyond the
message … was for myself.
I had to stop … wasting my time and energy so that i guide those persons.
It was indeed the time to guide myself … to analyze and define more deeper … my own soul … so that i could into the end to simple start a process of redefining all related to my soul.
to my connection to different energies.
and follow better … paths of life.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
65
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
philosophical & spiritual essays
Seeing the message …. but
pretending we don’t see it … on and on and on … we just continue living
ignoring the real paths we need to follow in life.
When i say … karma … everyone get scared … or at least becomes … annoyed … if it is a story … destined to that person.
If i start to define .. what i see beyond that scene of life … and why i call all … karmic … i see people even more scared … or more annoyed.
And i am actually surprised of such an attitude … but looking back in time … at all the karmic episodes of my life … I realize i’ve acted the same when i’ve been told about the fact
that i need to realize the karmic message … understand it deeply …. and then redefine my life.
But the truth was that i was not agreeing the idea of … change.
the fact that it was the time … and i could not delay it anymore.
The messages … were repeated.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
66
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
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I knew by years that whatever it’s on and on and on … it’s karmic … but … again … i was just delaying …. all.
It was like …. I was hoping as the Universe to change its
mind … and all i had to do was … to wait.
But it was such a … nonsense.
That continued … for years …. and i was keep pretending…
My spiritual evolution was … good.
But … not good enough … probably … cause I was ….
pretending… a lot …. ignoring the signs … and the messages i
knew about by such a long time … became an art for myself. And … i continue to ignore the real paths i need to follow. Like my whole life …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
67
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
philosophical & spiritual essays
Perfect stories look sometimes so real … but are in fact lessons about the illusion of life
To understand the life itself … most probably we need to understand our own lives.
Sometimes it’s easier to understand the people around us … but we make the mistake of always … judging those people … not realizing we actually judge ourselves … with all our mistakes … and everything related with what is named … our dark side.
Well … i believe the same … that it sounds … so … weird. But that until one day … when we suddenly understand that dark side … might not be … something bad. It’s maybe … something … un revealed.
I had many times the chance to live … all sorts of experiences… that were probably meant to make me understand…. my meaning in here … but the most weird ones
are …. those stories that look … perfect.
And being into such chapter of life … i’ve wondered … how the hell i’ve got there?!
Are those perfect stories real?!
What if it is all … an illusion?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
68
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Maybe this is why i always ask myself if the title of my book “The illusion … of being part of an illusion” … is a correct title … or not.
Hmm…. Today i somehow believe that all it’s an illusion …
maybe a karmic one … having the only purpose to reveal us the illusion of life.
but i also believe that the Universe is laughing behind my back … replacing the ugly illusory karmic stories … with perfect case scenarios … that look so damn real ….
Deep inside myself … i still know it’s all … illusory. I feel it …
I deeply feel it …
All i do … is accept the situation…. and continue my life …. And maybe i should stop asking myself … anything at all.
stop thinking.
Simple … enjoy life … and nothing more … nothing less.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
69
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
philosophical & spiritual essays
Revealing the truth …. it will hurt …
a lot … so maybe we should just redefine all … in a totally different way … and pretend it’s not what it looks like.
We live with the hope … but also with the illusion that all the stories from our lives … are very important chapters that will never have an end.
But when we look into the past … and deeply analyze all … i realize that all my stories had a beginning, the story itself and … the end.
.. even the most important stories from my life. Yesterday … someone wrote me about my book “Analyze. Define. Redefine.” … and asked me to teach her how to define the story she had with … a married man.
She wanted to know if in fact they are lovers … or she is just a mistress, or they simple have an amazing sexual relationship … or … or … or …
She had in fact about 20 different perceptions about them.
… and were so, so contradictory thoughts.
But instead of letting her know the secrets of my book … i simple ask … “Why do you need to define?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
70
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
philosophical & spiritual essays
Why don’t you just enjoy the story …. and forget about those
analyzes?!
It looks useless … to have so many contradictory thoughts about you and him …”
She did not liked … what i’ve told her.
In fact … she was expecting from me the truth … or maybe even … the absolute truth.
but the real truth was that i not even knew them in person
to feel their energies.
To feel if they have … a connection…
All what came into my mind was that all was … very complicated… and maybe the relationship itself … was in fact … a karmic relationship.
The whole meaning was … to redefine their souls … and teach them … what absolute love is.
She was trying to define and redefine all … to look like a great … love story … but …
It was indeed an important chapter of her life … and a real important story … but maybe not what she had in mind.
My perception about the whole story was different … but not positive … or negative.
I believed that the word … karmic … would define all very
good … but … maybe she was not ready for such … a
definition…. for her reality.
… and it’s normal …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
71
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Residual energies must be … reconverted. … maybe in wisdom.
I stay in the sofa from my home … meditate …. drink a coffee
… and write.
I look back in time … and remember about all the karmic stories from my life … and i smile. I could probably laugh …
Laugh … of myself.
Of the fact that even if i’ve studied for such a long time philosophy and spirituality … and even if i knew that all i see on the stage of my own life … it’s an illusion … i believed … the opposite.
And that was the reason … why i’ve allowed myself to be annoyed by so many people … that i allowed to be dominated by anger, fear, sadness, guilt, shame, anxiety, disgust, disappointment, embarrassment, jealousy, apathy, envy, hate
and all the rest of negative emotions a human being can feel.
It happened to me for so, so many years into the row … not realizing that even if i know the theories about the secrets of life … i was so stupid that i was trying to fight with the karmic ghosts that appeared to me all the time.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
72
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
philosophical & spiritual essays
The concept … which i knew … and understood deeply that … all we see is an illusion … totally disappeared from my mind when i was acting on the scene of reality.
I was explaining to the others … and also wrote about the subjects in many of my books … but the embarrassing truth was that … when it came about my own life … i failed all the karmic tests.
But the Universe was … smiling too.
And my karmic experiences kept repeating… for years. Years in the row … and i was metamorphosed into a robot that was experiencing an automatic pilot all the possible negative emotions that … i could experience into this lifetime. I knew it was wrong.
