I call a dear friend … we go to his office … connect them … and leave.
But the funny thing … is that few days ago … i met the lawyer at the coffee shop … and when i’ve asked how things moving with the case ... he just smiled.
Then … replied … “All good! Things will be arranged … and all i could say is that i like your friend a lot.
You know that even if i don’t mix business with … pleasure … i let her abuse of me … sexually. And … i did it with … joy.”
I look at him … and smiled.
I could not believed it …
So … i tried to help Emily… but in the end i’ve sent her into the arms of my friend …
But what is more funnier is that yesterday i’ve met John … Emily’s husband … that came to me … saluted … and thanked me 3 times for making the presentation between his wife and the lawyer.
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I smiled … but said into my mind … “Damn it!”
So … my question was … what the hell had i’ve done?!
Was it something good … or bad that i made the connection between the lawyer and Emily?! Hmm…
I did not really knew what to believe anymore … but on the other hand the huge legal problems … Emily had … almost disappeared… which was good.
But … i did more than that … cause my friends started a sexual relationship…. all being in fact inappropriate. Or … maybe all was karmic.
And i’ve asked myself … how could i practice honesty in front of Emily’s husband.
… it all could be a nonsense.
Well … maybe all was about karmic facts … that had to happen into that way … and i had to accept what happened … Not judge … anything … cause judging is … stupid … especially for the humans … that have so many … sins.
Yes … things happen … into ways difficult to be understood… or accepted.
And even what we would think that might be defined … with honesty … it’s stupid.
… cause we just can’t understand… the whole picture.
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Karmic characters are …. amazing actors
All my karmic relationships started just … great.
It all looked as … the perfect relationship … between 2 souls. No matter of gender, age, philosophy of life .. skin color …. all was perfect.
I even started to believe that indeed … us … the humans … can really have perfect relationships.
Well … until one day … when i’ve realized it was all a karmic story … those people looking like people possessed by the Devil … or maybe i should say it into a beautiful way and define all … that they looked … as amazing actors. Hmm …
Being polite … is useless into the end … anyway … but karmic stories are so damn difficult and the karmic characters so … so … annoying…
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Karmic characters … wear
lots of masks.
We should always be aware of that … and realize that all might be … just an illusion
I try … not be boring into my writings… but also try to define my thoughts, my feelings … and all my contradictory emotions.
I try to keep the right balance between saying to the public interesting things … but also the fact that i should speak more about my personal experiences.
Things which i felt … deeply … and i’ve came to some conclusions … only after i’ve analyzed them … a lot. And karmic characters… always intrigued myself.
I keep asking myself why they wear so many contradictory… masks.
And the real question is … why today they act as great friends … and the next day … they are metamorphosed into our worst enemies?!
Why this balance of contradictory attitudes?!
When i write about those people …. I really know what i am
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saying …. cause i saw them so often on the stage of my life.
Today … i am even afraid of people which are acting … into a perfect way with me.
I somehow know … and also feel … it’s just a mask which they are wearing.
But … what i also know is that those masks are illusory masks … no matter if they are of positive or negative impact on ourselves.
And i already know that i should just smile in front of those … karmic actors.
I should just try to understand… what is the message they are whispering to me.
I also try to remember … that the stage of life is just an illusion … and being in the scenes with those people around me … i need to act as a great actor too.
To feel i am on the stage of a theater… into a karmic play ….
I am feeling … it’s all a nonsense, but maybe it’s not.
I start somehow to feel … the meaning of all what is going on… keep in mind that all i see it’s just illusory… but the karmic characters are acting into a certain way simple because they want to teach me different lessons of life.
I should accept … all their masks … but it’s so difficult … even if i already know theory …. by a long, long time. I continue analyzing those masks.
And all intrigues me … so much.
I need … probably … to speak more with myself.
To analyze more what karma is …. what is its meaning … and
the fact that i can’t get rid of those people … unless i realize, but also accept the message they keep repeating to myself. … into a beautiful, but also an ugly way.
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Truth be told … there
are moments when we are “used” by the Universe … for solving things in here.
But we should only
smile … and accept that as a divine plan.
“Been used” …. it’s a concept no one likes so much … of
course … except the ones that understand the meaning of karmic energies.
And there are lots of ways in how the Universe … God … Allah ... or however we name the Infinite Intelligence.
There could be moments when we don’t really understand how this is happening, but also moments when we will dislike seeing that.
It probably all depends of our ability of understanding our lives.
Today i could say … from my perception … that being used … is not a bad thing.
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I should probably say …. it’s even … a blessing.
We could be used … by certain people … or even by circumstances.
Our money could be used … for something else than our own purposes or interests … or even all we possess … but we should simple smile … and …. agree. I see some … conscious of that.
Some … annoyed.
Some … having no idea of what is going on.
But my question is … what should we do in front of such a situation?!
Well … maybe we should analyze the case of a parent and a child … and we should ask … is the parent used by the Universe?!
Is it an abuse?!
Is the parent wasting the life itself … by being 100% near the child?!
The example itself … might sound stupid.
… something that we should not even bother to talk about … but if we go deeper in any of the religions of this world … we understand we are all God’s children. So …
Maybe it’s time to redefine our perceptions.
To let the Universe and the life itself … to “abuse” of us ….
seeing all … as a divine plan for a better world.
Is it possible to accept this?!
It is a nonsense to name it …. divine plan?!
Should we allow … to be “used”?!
Hahaha .. i think “been used” it’s not an … option.
It just happens ….
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And we should just accept things as a karmic reality that we need to live for … a while.
Maybe the only option is just to … enjoy it … or not.
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Sometimes it looks
so complicated. In fact … it looks … as impossible… but … still
we want to continue
on that path …
I knew her story.
I knew her life … before him, but i also knew a little this guy
which was in fact … the representation of her dreams … They were really … a nice couple.
But … they somehow met … late in life … both being more than 40.
This life experience… which they had today … was an advantage… but also a great disadvantage.
They both carried … lots of ghosts into their souls … remembering about past experiences… which had a huge impact.
Maybe …. we could say that … they entered into a relationship together … not being honest enough with each other … that they carry … souls with lots of … scars.
But … time was passing … and all was revealed.
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Even if both of them … dreamed of the perfect case scenario
for a love story … the ghosts from the past …. where not letting them be there for … 100%.
I was looking at her … knowing her psychological knowledge…. and i was smiling … realizing how she was hiding the truth.
the real truth.
And he was probably doing the same.
It was the perfect love story … with everything that means … communication, love … sex … all … but … still … something ruined … everything.
Analyzing their relationship … i’ve started to understand that all … it was a karmic story … meant to redefine … their broken souls.
I wanted to find … a solution for them … cause they really looked great together.
I wanted to give them … an advice … which could help them … to continue being together.
But … more i was meditating… i was realizing we can’t fight with the ghosts from our past … and the only wise thing we could do is to … ignore those energies … till they will just … fade.
Wait … keep believing into the importance of their connection… and maybe instead of wasting the time … worrying… they should just enjoy being together… and ignore anything could be against them.
Cause … truth be told … we can’t fight with the ghosts ….
It’s useless ….
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Maybe … we chase for relationships … not to be alone … but we somehow
forget about …. love
Near my house … stays a divorced lady.
She really is a good neighbor … and i never had any problem with her.
I could even define her as … the perfect neighbor… and i am really honest saying it.
But the funny thing which i noticed is that every 1-2 years … another man is moving into her house.
Of course …. being a free woman, divorced … and quite ok as
person … i don’t even dare to judge her … but i smile a little when it comes about the subject.
When the first guy moved at her … i was even speaking with him each time when we’ve met.
The second one … i was just saying him … “Hello!” … when i saw him.
But after … all the others … not even bother to salute them.
It was all about numbers …. and nothing more.
1, 2, 3 … 7 …. 12 etc … so why should i bother to salute
them.
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They were only … my temporary neighbors.
Few days ago … realizing it’s a new guy … that saw … i am not saluting him … even if i saluted the lady … he became a little bit annoyed.
Of course … he did not knew the whole story.
You might say … that i am an impolite person … that not even bother to say “hello!” … at least with the eyes … but it’s not like that.
It’s not what it looks like.
I am a very polite person … even too polite … many times. So … what is really going on?!
How should we define such a case?!
Well … this is actually a story … which i could analyze … over the last 2 years … realizing that my neighbor … from the desire to not be alone … was probably forced to have … a new partner … and a new one … and … so on.
I can’t even remember …. their names.
But you see … you might miss understand… and judge into a wrong way this lady.
same as i did into the beginning … when she moved near my house.
Today … knowing that all is happening … into a repetitive way
it’s actually karmic … but also believing that she was afraid to be … alone … i think …. very seriously…. about telling her that she should chase for a love story … not just for a relationship.
So …
Well … it’s easy to analyze and define people … not really knowing the whole story about her.
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Cause … truth be told … i never had the chance to know deeply… my neighbor.
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All we see … is part of the karmic story.
Whatever we don’t like ...
or don’t want to happen
it’s going to happen anyway into another form.
There are many moments when we should pay anything we’d been ask to pay … to find out the future … but the ugly truth would be that next second when we should find out what is going to happen … most probably we should be very disappointed.
I tell this from my own experience…. having into my life
someone which can tell me whatever is going to happen. Today .. i only let her tell me … few pieces of the future important moments .. realizing … i’ll always end up being … disappointed.
The funny thing … at least with me … is that knowing the future …. I’ve always tried recently to improvise … and change a little bit the story.
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I’ve lived with the illusory hope … that i can change the karmic script of my life …. and i can fool the Universe. And for a while … my plans succeeded.
I was happy … not really understanding i cannot fool the Universe … or if i could fool anyone that would be me. Time was passing … and all was revealed … again and again … and again.
I’ve started … little by little … to understand how karma works … and the meaning of those annoying karmic episodes for my life.
Well … i was understanding… maybe all … but i could not accept … and embrace … the present moment.
It was …. over my powers.
