I knew i was not on the right path … but it was like i was incapable of making absolutely… no change.
Time was passing … and it became ridiculous to realize all what is going on … but into the same time … continue my life … into a very, very stupid way.
Well … until one day when i’ve started to understand that Dalai Lama was not an idiot saying that … “our enemies are our greatest teacher” …
I had to start to reconvert … or metamorphose all my negative emotions into…. positive ones.
Hate … all those thoughts and feelings regarding the people that annoyed me over the years … had to become … love.
I had to … start practicing the process of infinite love and infinite understanding… with all these karmic characters… And damn it ….
It was easy … cause i knew the theory and all i had to do ….
but i was stubborned …
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I was delaying… the change.
Meanwhile my reality was … what i should define as a … miserable life … only and only cause i was not taking the decision to apply …. the change.
The reconvert … all those residual karmic energies into fuel … for the journey… to a beautiful life.
But i was smart … and idiot into the same time …. knowing
about the karmic illusions of life …. but believing all it’s real.
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Philosophical and
spiritual journeys … the key for a better life.
Today i believe that analyzing and defining life … and also our own lives … it’s a real must … and anyone should have that in mind.
I’ve started the book with essays … “Karmic energies … seen as influences that are redefining our lives” … as an attempt of trying to understand the meaning of … karma … for the human being.
It was all an attempt as an … ordinary person … and probably the only thing i’ve succeeded was to make other people understand that there are moments in life when … it’s time for them to start a spiritual … and why not … a philosophical journey.
I’ve enjoyed writing the book …. but with a little bit of regret
…. I must admit that again … it’s not a finished book.
Maybe my only purpose was to whisper to you … about some secrets …. you need to study too.
And if i succeed that … i declare myself … happy.
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It all makes sense … but maybe we should not care of everything …
I know an interesting lady from … another life time … but what is funny is that she keeps appearing to a close friend of mine … on dating apps.
From time to time … he sends me her photos.
I smile … cause i know she already is by a long time in a relationship with a guy … much younger than she is.
So … from time to time …. my friend is keep remembering
me about her … and we wonder why she is always changing her name … on those apps.
It’s all a total nonsense…. but suddenly a weird photo
appeared to me on social media … with a scene … from an old house … a scene that looked like a dinner between a couple that was indeed … in love.
The plates and the wine were there … but the characters… maybe died long time ago.
A weird analogy which came into my mind … while thinking of this lady.
I wanted to call today my friend …. to ask him the favor of
not mentioning her anymore … but … i did’t.
She was …. maybe trying to send us … a karmic message …
and i wanted to ignore her.
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But my life had so, so many weird messages sent from everywhere … and i had enough of analyzing … on and on and on.
like i had enough of remembering about the nonsense of talking about this lady friend which i mentioned.
So … i’ve tried to convince myself … that it’s time to ignore some of the things from my life.
I paid too much attention to so, so many details … that into the end … i’ve wasted my time … and my own life … with useless analyzes.
instead of living life … and enjoying it.
That photo with the scene of the romantic dinner from … maybe 30-40 years ago … says maybe everything.
I see the messages beyond the messages … but what if i should not take them personally anymore?! …. and ….
Hmm … damn it …. I’m too connected to all …
… to all those karmic influences around myself.
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About myself …
I’ve started to write my first book at 16 … but then … realizing i could not publish it … i’ve abandoned the idea of being a … writer.
20 years later … i’ve started to write again … believing i will finally succeed … but i’ve failed one more time … not getting the success i was chasing for.
Another 5 years later … i’ve started one more time to write … but this time … more as a therapy.
It’s what i’ve defined as … self therapy.
I was analyzing and defining lots of weird ideas … that were a lot related to me … and my own soul.
I totally forgot that i was chasing for success.
I was simple writing my thoughts … in essays … becoming this way … maybe not a writer …. but what many define as … an essayist.
This is not a poet … and not a writer.
Or maybe is kind of a poet that is incapable of writing poetry … but is still expressing his thoughts … into a similar way … as a poet.
And is not a writer … cause have not the ability to write for too long time … about the same subject. But maybe i am not an essayist… either.
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I am just an ordinary person … that could be better defined … as a thinker.
Analyzing … and defining my life … practicing this process called … self therapy … i started to understand life … and the way to better paths which i should follow.
And i’ve wrote … and wrote … and wrote … realizing one day that i’ve published tens of books …. not really understanding how the hell I’ve succeeded doing that.
Today i dare to recommend writing … as a therapy.
I could even say … it’s a simple way of understanding who we are … but also a process that could help us … heal our souls. I personally continue to … write.
It’s in fact … a non ending story that … at least for myself … will probably continue for the rest of my life. But over all … i am glad … i am doing it.
I continue my philosophical journey … not being able to define myself for clear as a writer or an essayist… but … Well …. most probably… i am on a good path.
And … i would dare to recommend to everyone … all what i am doing today.
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We must not forget that the meaning of karmic is always to … redefine us.
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